SOURCE (great read highly recommend)
i have spent just about all day thinking about creativity, mostly in relation to music as i have been listening to music pretty much non-stop for over 30 hours and i do not plan to stop. i have managed to discover so much beauty in music this last day just by thinking about it a lot. before i used to just simply enjoy it but now i find myself unable to stop thinking about everything making up what it is that im hearing. whos singing? what instruments are being used? how did they make certain sounds ? what makes it such a pleasurable experience for my ears that i feel compelled to listen again and seek out music that sounds similar ? theres so many questions i have and it all just makes me want to seek out as much knowledge as i possibly can and i get an urge to contribute. although, i do not have any experience creating music and it feels to be such a task to begin. as much as i want to there is a great fear that ill become far too interested and itll begin to take time away from achieving what i really dream of achieving. so until i achieve that i will just spend that time instead documenting my thoughts and feelings about it here and who knows perhaps i will get started anyway. i am truly hoping i can find the strength and willpower to stop consuming things that arent feeding my creative impulses or are taking away from reaching my dreams or building what it is that im building here. it is very hard. i am tragically very addicted to social media, it is so clever in its design in keeping you on whatever app they want to keep you on. it frustrates me greatly how many people (myself included) get taken advantage of in this way and im quite sick of contributing to it. i think there are still healthy ways to engage in social media and i suppose i would like to be a part of that but as it stands right now i am spending entirely too much time on it. however i didnt spend any (first time using italics yay) time on social media today which makes me quite happy and considering how much i enjoy being happy i hope i can keep doing it. although it took a decent bit of effort to do so and just like any addiction its very easy to slip back into that but hopefully this newfound will to create can fuel me towards continuing behaving this way and i am very confident it would get easier as time went on, seeing as expressing creativity is quite fun and far more productive than scrolling through hours of slop.
the apples in stereo. are so. fucking. good. rob schneider：： 愛してる
i cant even begin to describe how happy it makes me that someone like robert schneider of the apples in stereo and emory university exists. he is so unbelievably cool i think it would be amazing to meet him one day.
the elephant 6 documentary has had a profound impact on me (thank you ciel) it was so inspiring to see this large group of creative minds decide to come together and work towards bringing all of their brilliant (and even the not brilliant) ideas into reality to make an abundance of art for people like myself to experience and enjoy and be inspired by. after watching it (twice) i have gotten so many creative impulses and i think that is a large reason for why i have decided to make this website. its such a simple creative outlet that i am easily able to understand and build and mould into the way my mind wishes for it to be. i originally thought that i had never had a creative outlet but then it occurred to me that my favourite video game is actually my creative outlet regardless if i realise it or not. although thats not why i play it, i play it because i wanna be a superstar. more on that later, and in a different section of this library. but yeah this website is far more of an intentional creative outlet and developing it and seeing it change with every line of text i type out brings me immense joy. ive already learned so much about html and its all very intuitive and simple and this place is going to look so beautiful. we're gonna have gifs, audio recordings, videos, colourful images WE ARE GOING TO GET AS CUSTOM AS MY MIND ALLOWS. so yeah my utmost gratitude for the elephant 6 documentary for sparking this creativity within me (as well as ciel for inspiring me to make things) its gonna be quite the beautiful ride
i find so much comfort in knowing that there is a near infinite amount of things for me to do and try to do in this life and its nice to know there are things that can make my heart sing other than the best video game ever made. although nothing makes my heart sing quite like it (at least for now) anyways i think im gonna open up a new section of the library to talk about all that, i know i said that its kinda like a creative outlet but i think i want to keep it separate from this section. however we'll put it right next to (or i suppose above) this one :)